A little of this. A little of that.....

What have I been up to? What have I been feeling? I have had a lot of feeling, but I don't know how to sort them out. I feel mad. I feel angry. I feel hurt. I feel disappointment. I feel alone. I feel happy. I feel joy. These are some of the feelings that have been hanging around...some too much.

We have been talking about feelings a lot in our house...well Parker and I talk about them....Barney too. I just decided that they need to come up with an LDS version of Barney.... One that teaches gospel principles as well as the primary songs. I think I might send a letter to President Monson.

Anyway, a light bulb went off in my head last week. I thought about Parker and his behavior and his routine. He has not been himself. It has not really been him....it has been his best friend, SUGAR. Lemonade, OJ, cookies, candy, donuts. You think to yourself, "Yeah, that is not really good for him, but I need 5 minutes to myself." Plus they are yummy and I am able to partake in the chocolate, sugary goodness.

So, when the lemonade ran out, that was it. The same with the OJ, and donuts and everything else.
We go to the store when dad gets paid and get some treats and eat them sparingly....I have been pretty impressed with myself. He still gets his sugar fix, but it is not an all day event.

Yesterday, he asked for candy and I told him after nap. He looked at me and said, "You cookin my gits mom.....I am feelin mad." Which made me laugh. The first part is from, Remember the Titian's and I have said it all of 4 times to Ben. The last part is from Barney, who happens to be his new best friend and has taught him how to count in Tahiti.

Today, he cried when we were getting ready for church because last week his favorite teacher, Sister McDonald was not in church. "I am sad about nursery.....McDonalds not there." I laughed again because he loves nursery he just loves to make me worry about it and second because he refers to his teacher as "McDonalds." The other day he said, "I like to sing at McDonalds." It took me a while to figure out that he really meant, I like to sing with Sister McDonald.

Last week was Parker's second day of tumbling. I tried to convince him to stay by himself, but nothing worked. "Don't make me sad mom....don't leave me." Finally I gave in...which is what I do best. I told him I'd stay but he HAD to listen to his teachers and he HAD to stay by his friends. So, I am like 10 feet away. The whole time he had the look of terror on his face and looked like he was about to flood the gym with his tears. He did great. There are two girls that teach the class and one of them he warmed up to....the other one he wanted nothing to do with. His teacher really helped him and took time with him. He even held her hand. And gave her a hug after class. This week was great. He did the bear crawl by himself. They practiced somersaults, galloping, standing on one leg and they even got to jump on a trampoline and crawl through a tunnel. He only came to me twice....for a kiss. He did great. He did all of the stunts and stayed by his friends and listened very well. I was so proud of him. There may have even been a couple of proud tears...from me.

Anyway, I have been getting high on scrapbooking. It has absolutely consumed my life. I have been keeping myself very busy with it. I have been to two crops within 2 weeks. I finished my sister and mom's scrapbook and am halfway finished with my other sisters. I made a summer mini-book and am working on a Halloween mini-book.

When I am scrapping everything else goes away......It is a great feeling.

But that is for a different day. I am not sure if this post has a real point. Just a few things on my mind. I thought maybe if I got them down then I'd feel better.....hey I do...humf!